Friday, March 23, 2007

Back in the Saddle Again

I did it. Today, I asked my bosses if I could be bumped back up to full time hours and status. It was a little nerve-wracking waiting to hear back from them, but, as they are two wonderfully kind women, they are going to work with me and give me as many hours as I want. Total answer to prayer! If they couldn't, then I would be having to look for another job - and I would really hate that. Not just because the whole process of searching isn't fun, but because in May I'll have been with this company for 2 years...and I genuinely like the people I work with and for.
Now, you may be thinking two very different thoughts, like: "Wow, she's been livin' the gravy life only working part time" or maybe "Is she nuts??!? Why is she going back into the daily grind?". Let me explain...
As to the first, when we found out that Joe was hired by the PD and would be going to their academy, we had some decisions to make. Statistically, cops have very high divorce rates due to stress and a completely demanding schedule. (Now, I know that this is seen through a worldly view point, and not a Christian one, but still, the numbers aren't so encouraging.) So we headed back to the counselor who did out premarital counseling, and I'm really glad we did. She had a lot of great advice for us. One of the suggestions being, perhaps I should cut back to part time (providing that financially we could do it), and take over all the areas of the home front, so that would free Joe up to concentrate only on the academy (which is basically a boot camp), and be a support to him that way. We opted to do that, and for us, it really worked. I have enjoyed it (mostly), and have a real new found appreciation for military wives - being responsible for every single thing by yourself (finances, food, laundry, cleaning) is not easy. I missed divvying up the "to do list". But I know that Joe really appreciated not having his focus cluttered up with all that other stuff, and did great in the academy and field training, which leads to the next point...
So, here we are, still in that routine because it got comfortable. But now he is in patrol, in a much more normal schedule (let's face it, the hours will really suck for awhile, but at least it will be consistent), and we started thinking, we were ready to take the next step. That's right, we're ready to leave the apartment and enter the world of Home Ownership. Good thing too, because lately, the little white walls (we're not allowed to paint) have been starting to close in on me. We want a yard. We want a place where we could have big family/holiday dinners at. We want to gear up to start a family. We want a dog. All that good stuff. We're ready. When we started reassessing the budget, it just makes sense at this point in life for me to go back full time. It'll help us qualify for a better loan, and we can still tuck away for the future. Eventually, when we do have kids, we both want me to stay home...but for now, back to work. It is scary and exciting, all at once. We've already met with some loan officers, mapped out a budget, and now the next step is to talk to Realtors. We won't do anything until Joe is off of probation, just in case, but that is coming up fast. I can't believe it!!
So, logically I understand why it is good to go back; emotionally, I am still catching up a little. Since I'll be M-F 7:30 -4, my days off will most likely not match up with Joe's. While I was part time, I could change what days I had off to be in sync with his. It was great! I will hate giving that up. But, I guess sacrifice is necessary at this point for something that we both really want. I'm just not the biggest fan of change, and this'll definitely be an adjustment. Part of life though, eh?